Questions and answers

Q: I have some questions.  I always read your post here and they are amazing clarity.

I have tried to follow your directions in the investigation of the “I” but I’ve noticed that the more I try to find the “I”  the more it escapes me.

It seems that when we undertook the search of “I”, the mind always brings distractions.

So it seems that it takes a little effort on our part to seek the “I” and not be distracted. What practice do you recommend?

Reply: No practice.  Prescriptive teachings are for spiritual kindergarden. ‘Do this’ and such and such will be the result, etc. Calming the mind is about as far as they get.  The livingness is now, always immediate. Recognition is spontaneous, just like the seeing, knowing.  (Not two)  The simple directives are simple.  It is not a practice and it can NEVER be a practice.  ‘You’ do not have to practice to know, to see, to hear or to breath.

Those addicted to the concept of practice bind themselves to ‘a never ending time loop’ in their own mind. Some have the sheer audacity to teach total nonsense, while they themselves are caught in erroneous beliefs.

You will never find an I.   Cognitive research has been going on for decades.  No one has found any ‘I’.  All they can offer is analogies, theories and metaphors.

Where is the ‘I’?  There isn’t one. That is why no one ever finds one and that is what needs to be recognized – there isn’t one.  Of course it is a paradox for the believed in entity.  It is an impossibility to recognize this so long as the concept of a ‘me’ (self-centre) fills the naked space where naked seeing is (already and always) ‘taking place’.

‘I’ is just a word.   See if you can find any substance to it.

Everything spontaneously appears and disappears.

No beginning, no end.

Practice implies time and someone to do the practice and of course something to get in the future.

Reality does not practice.   The false can appear to practice trying to become real but it never can be anything but rearrangements of what is false.

Q: (Yes but) If I do nothing then I continue to be guided by my mind and emotions and not by the Real Self.

I will continue to have the same mediocre life.

Something needs to change or be done.

A: The image you have about a real self is conceptual.  No concept is real.  Not even the most subtle concept can be real or stand apart from this naked cognition.  What appears as a ‘need to happen’ (seeking) is already pure functioning which is already happening as this ever-present pure seeing-knowing.  The apparent need for the ‘me’ is for a clear and precise insight that is ‘from’ unbiased presence-awareness, emptiness itself, but the ‘me’ stands in the way, blocking the clear and obvious.

‘You’ have never done a single thing.

All your seeming ‘doing’ amounts to nothing.

The appearance of independent volition is an illusion (maya).

Seeing is happening.  Recognize that ‘you’ are not ‘doing’ the seeing.

The hypnotic affectation (belief) only has any apparent validity because of belief.

Belief is Never the actuality.

Q: It seems that I always have to watch the course and not fall into the net of thoughts.

When there are no thoughts all is well.

I have to see it constantly.

A: (I just told you)….Seeing is happening.

Who is trying to watch?  The thought up entity cannot see, it is conceptual.  A concept cannot see.

Thought is not the problem.  Belief in thought ‘creates’ a problem (for the me).

‘Belief in me’ seemingly obscures what is actually clear and obvious.

You can pause thought.

Recognize the apparent nature of whatever is happening and notice that where it is all seen from, (the actual seeing) there is nothing happening.

Q: When I try to stop thinking, thoughts come harder.

How can I not be identified with the thoughts?

A: Thoughts come and go.

What you are cannot come and go!

The identification with thoughts is just more thoughts about ‘me’.  They all come and go.

Recognize what is always present.  It is not a thing.

The seeing is actually object-less and subject-less. Duality, object-subject has no substance or independence.  It cannot stand apart from the seeing-knowing.  It cannot ‘be’.

In the scheme of things, no one wants to know this.

Q: I want is to find my true nature, which is peace and happiness.

But it seems that there is a blockage.

A: The blockage is composed of ideas and concepts the believed in ‘you’ has about what you are. Identity = Identify.

See through them and recognize the underlying actual silent, wordless natural state.

Don’t make a problem of this.  If you address this pointing ‘correctly’ the mind will go silent and recognition is possible.   EVen so, recognition can happen in the midst of any activity, so don’t construct a new belief that silence is something necessary.  Neither you nor anyone else can create silence.  One might say that there is more silence than sound anywhere and everywhere.

Just BE.  Don’t modify anything.  Being is being.   The chair you might be sitting on is being.  The label ‘chair’ is conceptual.  The word, just as belief, is never the actual.

There is no separate intelligence in the ideas, words or language.

Language is a tool for pointing or communicating.   Belief in words, as if they were real, is a problems ‘owned’ by the me fixation.

Q: It is difficult for me to get out of this hypnotic state of mind.

A: What you are is not in a state of mind.

Everything appears and disappears in what you are.

Stories about me me me will keep you running around in circles forever.

Stop.

Observe the mind.

Recognize that you are not a thing.  You can NEVER be a thought.

Q: When I read these words, I noticed that I’ve been searching all my life for something within the mind, and is being difficult to recognize that there is nothing to gain or to win.

My life has always been a spiritual quest.

A: The statement ‘my life’ is an erroneous claim.

All there is, is Life.

Q: I feel it is all a dead end.

I do not know what to do. What I am is not in the mind where it is then?

A: It is not a ‘doing’.

See that every function of the nature of being is happening without ‘your permission’.

You don’t tell the lungs to breath.

You don’t tell the heart to beat.

You don’t tell the food to digest.

All ‘you’ do is pretend to be in control.

Give nature a chance to function without the arrogating ‘I’ getting in the way constantly.

Q: I don’t know who I am. There is just empty. Silence.

The mind can not answer what it is.

A: Yes.  And can there be any psychological suffering in that?

No.   So recognize the heart essence and live with that knowledge.

Q: I recognize it for a few moments but then return to the same conditioning before.  I am back into the mind (conditioning).

A: What conditioned mind is there if you don’t think about it?

None whatsoever!

Q: I must be attached to some mistaken belief that prevents me to see clearly where you are pointing.

A: That is a complete fantasy.

How could it ever be true?

What I am pointing TO is where the seeing is taking place.   It is empty – no entity.

Seeing is happening and you are not ‘doing’ it.

A short time later:

Q: The problem is that I am totally identified with my thoughts and I can not get out of this vicious circle.

My mind is full of concepts and beliefs that I will achieve something that I still have not.

A: No!  That is like a lie you tell yourself only because it has not been investigated.  You say “I am totally identified with my thoughts” but it cannot be true. Totally identified.  Strong words for a fiction.  Can’t you see that you ‘create’ a ‘conceptual prison’ lock the door and throw away the key……Then you call out for help.  You complain that you can’t get out but you are the one who believes you are stuck.  There is no entity in any of it, there is no ‘doing’ in any of it.  It is just like a mirage.  Who believes there is water in a mirage?  Only the one who has not investigated a mirage.

Does the conceptual prison have any reality?   How could it?  It is all nothing but concepts.
Over and over it is pointed out: There is no answer in the mind.
What about that clear sentence of seven words do you not understand?
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The main points repeated:  The livingness is now, always immediate. Recognition is spontaneous, just like the seeing, knowing (Not two). It is an impossibility to recognize this so long as the concept of a ‘me’ (self-centre) fills the naked space where naked seeing is  (already and always) ‘taking place’.

The thought up entity cannot see, it is conceptual. A concept cannot see.There is no separate intelligence in the ideas, words or language.Language is a tool for pointing or communicating. Belief in words, as if they were real, is a problem ‘owned’ by the me fixation.Recognize that you are not a thing. You can NEVER be a thought.

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The seeing is actually object-less and subject-less. Duality, object-subject has no substance or independence. It cannot stand apart from the seeing-knowing. It cannot ‘be’.

See that every function of the nature of being is happening without ‘your permission’.

Recognize the apparent nature of whatever is happening and notice that where it is all seen from, (the actual seeing) there is nothing happening.

What I am pointing TO is where the seeing is taking place. It is empty – no entity.

Seeing is happening and you are not ‘doing’ it.

 

3 Comments
  1. If you have a question about the above conversation you can email me a question or if you are a registered reader of this site you can place your questions in the comment section. By clearing up misunderstandings things can get clearer. Holding onto erroneous beliefs keeps the mind going over old ground as if it could justify those erroneous beliefs. Relief spontaneously ‘happens’ when an erroneous belief is cut through.

  2. “Recognize the apparent nature of whatever is happening and notice that where it is all seen from, (the actual seeing) there is nothing happening.” … YES! Thank you, Gilbert.

  3. Yes, there is no need of a doer. Breathing is happening, walking is happening, seeing is happening, hearing, sensing, feeling, … There is knowing of all happenings and knowing is not separated from happening. That is : knowing= hearing, knowing = being, … This presence knowing is ordinary, obvious. There is no effort needed to see that which is reading these words on the screen is the presence knowing. It is wordless, silence, unknown, no attributes; it is here now. there is no place where it is, there is no time where it is. It is not an apparent object. It is presence knowing. The appearances arise and disappear in this presence knowing. When eyes are closed, I am this “here now” where arise and disappear sensations (body), thoughts, sounds…