Exhausting oneself through seeking what you already are.

Looking, looking, looking.   If you are looking at the appearance trying to find an answer, then you are looking in the wrong direction.

If you are looking inside trying to find an answer, then you are looking in the wrong direction.

Stop looking with the mind and BE the seeing – be nothing but the seeing.   It does not require a believed in ‘you’ that needs to ‘do’ something.

The seeker cannot ‘become’ a finder.

It does not matter who your guru is – if they insist that you must do something, then the teaching is faulty.

You are already what you seek.  The belief in an appearance of being, obscures the actual being-ness.   The movement in consciousness appears to ‘create’ the entire universe.   At the ‘core’ of that movement is naked seeing-knowing.  That is the most intimate aspect of what you truly are…….or it is as close as can be described.   Be what you are – it is effortless.   Trying to be what you are not, what you can never be is exhausting.

 

Gate gate gate, paragate, parasamgate, bodhi svaha – From the Heart Sutra – Buddha – प्रज्ञापारमिताहृदय.

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  1. “Where are you SEEING from?” is a bullet to the head…whatever the mind says is not it. The Essence is beyond reference…gate gate paragate, parasamgate! Yet, here it is not hidden, the open secret…the immaculate self shining jewel…the gateless gate.

  2. Gone, gone, gone, all the way over.
    There is a beautiful ‘story’ about the Zen Master walking on the side of the river. A monk calls out from the other side of the river: “Master, Master, I want to be on the other side”. The Master smiles with great compassion and replies “You are on the other side”.
    The seeking is the ignoring of the obvious.

  3. Speaking of ‘exhaustion.” Yesterday during a long walk in the country I found myself feeling (with nonduality) very much like the freshman calculus student I once was, frustrated at a nonsensical new language I could not hope to understand. That the course was taught by a very young Vietnamese graduate student with poor English skills only adds to the appropriateness of the analogy.

    I read the posts and the comments, all of them apparently from the same choir of voices (are there any ‘non-knowers’ out there beyond me?). And so it occurred to me that the approach must be similar to what was done in the calculus course: to start afresh, to forget chapter 5 or 6 and go all the way back to the preface and begin again. Only…. No more books, no more teachings, because it’s all mind stuff from other minds and that, in a sense, is no different than that poor Vietnamese kid attempting to teach folks like me higher mathematics.

    Cognitively, I can see that this “me story” is nothing but a series of events; the end-result of a body-mind evolution that “I” have nothing to do with. As I walk down the road a strand of sweat breaks out and courses down my face. “I” did not do that anymore than “I” churn the legs forward over fallen tree and broken stone. It just happens. The language used in thought is not “mine,” it was pounded into me by teachers. On and on. I can SEE this.

    Similarly, there very clearly is conscious-awareness. SOMETHING is conscious, aware, and that awareness does not depend on my life story for its beingness. At times that sense of awareness is inspiring, as in “Wow, I am!” This is especially true when one considers the alternative? What would/could be without my presence.

    Which brings me back to the struggle. Cognitively speaking, it is not “my” presence. But experientially it sure feels like it. As I walk I see a man working on his tractor and it seems fairly clear that his awareness is not mine (again, the awareness not being “his” or “mine”). Similarly, I return home and fall asleep and the awareness is gone. I believe one of the speakers on Urban Guru said much the same thing – that he didn’t like the term “awareness” because each day it seemingly disappears, meaning whatever it is that is aware has a habit of coming and going.

    And so I and others are told not to seek but just to BE because we already are THAT. Yet many mystics urge us to “seek with all our heart,” to pursue self-inquiry with constant vigilance, to “turn 180 degrees” inward again and again. And always we are receiving these messages from those who are no longer, who have seen through the self. Yet at one point they were walking the same confusing road as am I and so many others.

    Ultimately it seems so silly and ridiculous. It is little wonder so few wade into such waters. You can’t get there, there is nothing to get because there is no one to get it, everything is already and always perfect just as it is, and so on. There is absolutely no point to any of it, there is no exhaustion because there is no one to be exhausted and no such thing as exhaustion and ……………… It just goes on and on and on.

    And we laugh at dogs chasing their tails.

    • Yes………back to basics. Recognition ‘happens’ and the essence of recognition is ‘seeing-knowing’ – which is ‘always’ happening. Awareness ‘appears’ to come and go – but if someone calls your name loud enough, or a sound is loud enough, in deep sleep you will arouse and get up. How can that happen if awareness is absent? What ‘we’ call ‘awareness’ for most is simply the mind translating into a description…..”Oh, that is a chair – I like the color” or “Oh, this is not pleasant, I want to get rid of it” or any description at all. Wakefulness is naked and unadorned, empty of fabricated content – non conceptual.
      Keep investigating……..the essence of investigation is seeing-knowing.

  4. If you are lost in a strange city, wandering about and you ask for directions – many of the directions that some ‘random others’ give you in all good faith may be badly expressed or actually wrong. You may go in circles for hours. This can repeat itself many times. Frustration builds up, anxiety can bring more confusion. What is necessary is a high land mark that you can SEE and know in the immediacy, not some concept or image in mind. If a visible land mark is not available, a clear description of one is useful. “The Spire of a Church with a Golden figure one top”. OK. Now that is useful. As you wander about you may get a glimpse of that figure on top of a spire. The moment you SEE that figure there comes an instant relief. When searching for ones true identity there is no adequate description. Some clear pointers are the best anyone can offer. A recognition of ones true nature is unmistakable, if only because a natural sense of relief spontaneously appears. A resonance in being. DO not go back to conceptual descriptions unless it is absolutely necessary. ‘Follow that resonance in being’, stay with that – and the rest will unfold naturally.